Why did I cry? he asked. I could not answer his question honestly enough for I, myself,  did not know the answer. It's this feeling of being afraid. There are so many things that we have not talked about, but we know exists. I love this man, so much that it pains me everytime we are in a situation like this. He taught me a lot in this life, he's not even aware of it but I became a better person because of him. I may have imperfections, but I was able to love them because of him. It's easy to think about parting ways but thinking ahead of a life without him made me feel empty. He made me appreaciate this life again, the life I almost abandoned. 

bye bloge drive.

www.clumzy.net

Please visit me there.

signing off.

Last post na ba ito sa blogdrive.com? sana, pero may bukas pa eh.

3:00am na naman. Puyat na naman ako, okay lang wala namang pinagkakaabalahan eh. Tambay na nga pala ako ngayon. Pero simula ng naging tambay ako, and daming pagbabago sa oras ko kasi buo na naman ako kung matulog eh. Ngayon na lang yata ako ulit nakapagpuyat ah. Trip ko lang, may iniisip kasi ako eh (medyo magulo..wala namang dahilan). Gusto ko lang sulitin ang oras para mapatagal ko pa magbukas. Hindi ko alam kung mag-iisa na naman ako bukas, sana dumating siya (pagaling ka na).

Medyo senti-mode ako ngayon eh.. napatagalog tuloy ako sa entry ko. Ayos nga eh, mas nakakapaglabas ka ng gusto mong sabihin kaso pag tagalog kasi ginamit eh parang masyadong puno ng emosyon. Maganda kasi pakinggan. Kaya hangga't maari eh iniiwasan kong gumamit ng tagalog pag nagbloblog eh. Puno kasi ng emosyon yung wika natin eh.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror
today, what was behind you?
-door

2.Do you like someone?
-love someone.. yes

3.What were you doing at midnight last night?
-doing stuff in adobe

4. Favorite planet?
-Mars

5. Who is the first person who ever asked you out?
-haha..

6. What is your favorite part of a man's body?
-butt..oops.. eyes pala ^^

7. What color of underwear are you wearing?
-black

8. What do you think of yourself?
-clumsy

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently
wearing?
-barefoot at the moment ^^

10. Night light or pitch black?
-night light

11. Why do we always press harder on the remote
when we know the batteries dont work?
-it's a natural reaction..of irritation and hope

12.What's a word that rhymes with mist?
-list

13. What's something that you say a lot?
-hoy

14. Who told you they loved you last?
-bf ^~^

15. Last furry thing you touched?
-hmmm... ahaha

16. How many rolls of film do you need to get
developed?
-None

17. Your worst enemy?
-myself?

18. How do you like your eggs?
-sunny side up

19. How much cash did you spend yesterday?
-50 pesos

20. The last song you listened to?
-Lunes by join the club

21. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what
will you be?
-ant

22. Name someone with the same birthday as you
-vivas

23. Have you ever hit someone of the same/opposite
sex?
-yup

25. What magazines do you read?
-not really fond of reading magz

26. Has anyone you were really close with passed away?
-yup.

26. Do you watch mtv?
-rarely

27. What's the latest you have ever stayed up?
-12 hours... wee

28. Where did you go last saturday?
-sta.mesa ^^

29. Did you have fun?
-yupyup

30. Who were you with? Were they cool?
-joel..cool in his own way ^^

i was supposed to change the layout but decided not to put it up. I got bored of it just by staring at it all afternoon. I'm also thinking of not changing the layout until I get the domain. It'll be a month tomorrow and I won't stop until I hear a word from them. Sounds pathetic but hey It's my money and I can't let it pass like that. tsk.

hayz, i'm just bored and I've realised that I haven't updated this blog for sometime now. hmm, still no hope for the domain that i wanted. grr, there goes my money..sana pinang pizza ko na lng!

Anyway, time runs out so fast if you're not at home heehee. I was away from home for almost 2 days. I just wanted to get a breather coz I've been really mad. That's better than hurting someone especially a kid..a very 'sutil' kid. Well that kid almost got me to a serious accident. hmmp.

Also, I'm done reading HP 6 which was a bit emotional esp that of Dumbledore's scene but it's really nice.

Alright, I'm gonna change the layout tomorrow.

Signing off.

I already quit my job and I'm not at all bitter about it. There are just things that I've realised. Sure, the pay is very good but I would not want to be in a call center for years. It's decent job, the people and environment are great. Thanks to all the people who made me realise that (thanks to all your sermons and pangungulit). Also, another factor is my location. I travel from Caloocan to Makati everyday, most of the time at the wee hours of the morning. I thought of finding my own place but nah, I'm not really ready yet. Another factor is that I'm not really happy with it. I'm getting tired of talking non-stop for 8 hours. At first I was nervous of telling my mom about this (I just don't know how to say it ), but i'm glad how things turned out. She was glad that I've realised all the things that she had been telling me.

Haha I will surely miss being an America Online tech support. I will surely miss this job. pucha namimiss ko na nga yung opening spiel eh...

*"Hi this is sucy of AOL windows tech support, to begin may I have your first and last name please?"*

I also want to thank all the people I've worked with especially to those that made my stay in e-tel worth while. Also to those people that taught me a lot to improve (thanks to my TL... you've been very nice, and also my apologies for not informing you). **ahihi parang award amf, parang nababasa nila 'to ha..yaan nyo na ha! wala kong magawa eh**. I will miss you all! muah.

At this point of my life, I just need to graduate (please naman Lord). I'm getting older and life is also getting serious for me. hihi. I just hope to graduate before my mom turns 50 (five tears from now). Also, I've made a promise to someone that I will not mess up my studies just as I did 2 times (erhmmm... 2x lng ba? 3x ata eh ahihi). I did that because I was just bored of it, yup lame reason (I know). Hopefully this time I will do it right!.

teka, eto pinakamamimiss ko sa AOL...

"just to give you a quick recap.. you've called in today ..blahblah.. and we resolved that by ..blahblah.. And one last thing before I let you go as a benefit for calling AOL ....blahblah.. I'm going to transfer you now, ok?" nyahaha

I will surely miss those Americans haha.

ok, I'm done with my story hehe. back to playing weee (another reason why I'm not bitter about it ^^)

Bye AOL, signing off.

I'm slacking again. I'm being clumsy, I'm being irresponsible, hence I'm being ME again!. I thought that I can get away with that latecomer shadow.. tsk. tsk.

I'm getting bored in blogging again, I was expecting that my domain will be setup. It's been a week or two now and still no response from the hosting company. tsk tsk there goes my 800 pesos!!! tsk tsk

I've just bought a new hard disk, ram (512mb), video card (geforce4) and optical mouse yesterday. So I'm broke again, I'm excited to go home to abuse that .

-edit later-